46/365 - The Wall

When I made a commitment to writing something every day in 2012, my intention was to dedicate my energy to creative expression on a daily basis. What naturally followed was a desire to share my writing with others - hence, the birth of this blog. After almost two months into this project, I have to admit I'm starting to wonder if the chosen medium - though fairly safe and accessible as it might be - might eventually limit my ability to be explore my writing to the fullest potential. In other words, I'm coming to realize that the greater purpose to which I've committed is writing - not just posting to a blog.

I was talking with my beau tonight about his son's first serious attempt at writing fiction, and I was reminded again that that's an arena I've yet to explore. Of course, every time I consider it, I keep thinking I need to take a class or something to learn how to make something up. It's like when my kids ask me to tell them a story, off the cuff, I freeze and think, "I'm not that creative."

Maybe I am that creative, but I just haven't had the guts to try it. Maybe now is the time. Or maybe now is the time to scratch that itch I've had to write some things that may or may not be meant for immediate public consumption, or to delve more deeply into some projects that will no doubt take more than one day to see to completion - like those two books I've laid the foundations for. Now that I think about it, I'm starting to feel giddy about the possibilities! This must be what runners feel like when they finally get past the wall of drudgery that stands in the way of running simply for the sheer pleasure of it. I think I may have just discovered that the way around that wall - in running or writing or anything else we want to achieve - is quite simply commitment and fearlessness.

I promise you I have every intention of fulfilling the commitment I made, and I plan to continue posting something to my blog every day. I just can't promise what I might have to offer from this point forward. And that, my friends, is very exciting.